Sunday, May 3, 2009

funny stuff

Yesterday AJ and Owen were being very quiet and when DH and I looked for them on the couch, Owen had some tape and was wrapping it all over AJ's head, all in her hair and across her forehead and they were both laughing. They had the Macbook on the couch with them and DH saw that they had been using the Macbook to take pictures of their escapade using the Photo Booth app. They also used one of the weird effects that they have in photo booth. We thought that was hilarious. Luckily it wasn't too hard for AJ to get all the tape out of her hair and off her skin. I liked that they did something together, even if it was a bit naughty. Check out some of the pics...



L thoughts

Tonight I thought about after my older sister's accident, we will call her L, my younger sister, Claire was crying in her room at my mom's house. Let me clarify. This was only a few days after L's accident and Claire had flown from Israel with her husband...boyfriend at the time. I was there with DH and the kids were there and my parents. They have a big house (that they are still trying to sell now that they live up here.)

So it was morning and I heard Claire crying so I opened her door and went inside. Her husband was on the bed too but I just went right over to her and held her while she cried. She said she had a dream and I made her tell me the dream. She said she dreamed we were at the baby shower, it was one that we had just been to a few days ago for our good friend. But in the dream, L was there and she had a bandage on her stomach and that she knew she was going to die in a few days.

Then Claire told me that she woke up and the dream was true. That L was really gone and it wasn't just a dream. I told her that no that wasn't how it happened so her dream wasn't true. I said as I held her while she sobbed, that L didn't know she was going to die and that she was happy and that she didn't know at all and that one minute she was there and the next she was gone. I said that it was very different. I think I made her feel a tiny bit better but we were both kind of freaking out. It was terrible.

I keep waiting for L to come back. I keep waiting for all of this to not be real. Even after almost 2 years it doesn't seem real. It doesn't seem possible that she would be gone and the rest of us, my parents, me and Clair, to still be here. That just isn't how it was supposed to be. I still can't wrap my head around it. It helps that Emmy's middle name is after L. It somehow softens it all a little which is a bit strange but I think it even helps my parents. And when people send gifts for her they include her middle name on the card. No one ever did that for AJ and Owen.

Emmy is doing wonderfully well.