Although this pregnancy was not planned or in the plans, there is still something wonderful about being pregnant again. And now that I know how to do it I am excited at the changes happening, and this time, I completely understand them...well, not completely. I am not sick yet and not horribly tired, which is weird because I was exhausted early on with the first two and already sick with A.J. by now. I am sure that by 8 weeks I will be puking. In fact, that is how I am viewing this pregnancy. It is going to be rough, like my other two. It is going to be hard and painful and tiresome. But I am going to tough it out. This time I will not be surprised, I hope. I am just going to take things as they come and work through them.

I have difficult babies too, and once again, I will take things as they come. I am totally fine with this...a little scared but I have to smile when I think of the little life in my belly. Although yesterday she wanted this baby to be a girl, today A.J. says it is a boy and his name is Adan. I say, what if it is a girl an she says, "No, it is a boy, it is Adan." So she may have just named our 6 week old embryo.

I am excited to have our brood in our new house.

 I have never owned a house and so I am very much looking forwards to nesting. I am going to do lots of gardening and I am planning all sorts of projects for the back yard. Our new house is so little that we will most likely be spending lots of time in the large front and back yards. I am looking forwards to being able to nurse this baby with only DH and the kids around. I will probably be shirtless for the first couple of weeks. We lived with my parents through the first two pregnancies and babies. That was wonderful for us and the help was huge, and so appreciated that it would take many posts to truly express it. But this time, I will enjoy the privacy and I will enjoy not having stairs to have to transport children and babies up and down through out the day. We will just have our tiny little space of 850 square feet to navigate around. It sounds small for a family of 5, but we are not very tall people and we don't have much stuff. We ordered some beautiful appliances for our small kitchen that has been completely redone. And today I just ordered a book: The Creative Family - How to Encourage Imagination and Nurture Family Connections

I also ordered some BPA-free homemade popsicle holders and some soy crayon rocks.

I need some ideas for the summer that don't take much money. Occasionally, "creative" also means low cost because you do a lot of the work yourself. So, we will see if this book, "The Creative Family" pays for itself. I need some creative storage ideas and I read a review that said this book has some.

So I need to get back to my editing that I have been avoiding although this wedding is pretty fun to edit overall. The first dance comes complete with one of those sudden transitions from slow sappy country (insert record scrape noise here) to grinding boodie rap. Many of us internet junkies have seen these types of dances on youtube, so many younger guests attending this wedding were not surprised. But the older guests were, and their  expressions in the background are priceless. 

So tonight I am happy that I have a little one growing in my belly. I have no expectations, no false hopes and I do understand that there are no guarantees. So I will take it as it comes and enjoy it and yes, I will be heartbroken if things go wrong. So, here goes the next 8 months




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